Exam Results, a Lesson.

So, as you can see in the above picture, I scored a stunning A* for Economics and Bs for Accounting and History. The process of getting my exam results is such a story by itself. I was and still am in Philippines when the results came out on the morning of 11 August. I sat myself in front of the laptop refreshing the page over and over again, but with no success of logging into the already jammed up online portal. I was at the hotel in Cubao and we were checking out that morning to take a four-hour car ride to Canyon Cove Resort where Edmark's Leadership and Teambuilding Camp is held. I gave up. I called Miss Sathya and decided to get my grades from her instead. Her text message came in and I burst out in tears. I was genuinely disappointed. It was a hurtful feeling inside, as though the best that I have given was not good enough.

I got my results in the car, and we had a good two hours left in the journey. I silently sat with my feelings, cried my heart out when everyone slept and just learned to be with myself in that moment. It was heart breaking. Then, I was yearning to find out my score. I had only found out my grades. In order to view my score, I had to get online - which was only possible when I got to the resort. I attempted to log in on my iPod Touch numerous times when I arrived, but to no avail. Out of the blue, all of a sudden, I refreshed and the page loaded. I ran to Mummy's seat, sat on the floor by her legs and started crying hard. The score was so close. Some may say that having a strong B-grade is a good thing, but at the same time, it hurts having to know that it was that close.

Daddy said it was strong B-grades and I have made the cut for the university entrance, that is all that matters. Yet, it made me cry harder. Through that brief few hours of emotional turmoil, I had numerous people on Twitter who constantly encouraged me and I loved Niki Cheong's reminder telling me to celebrate the 78% I scored instead of crying over the 2% that I didn't get. It was a good reminder. All the words that flooded in worked as a wake up call to snap me back to my senses. I am most appreciative; Juana, Aunty M, Niki, Anas and everyone who talked me through it all, I thank you.

Something that Miss Hema said sparked thoughts in my head too. She said, "You don't have to always have them all. You need to learn, you are a normal person with faults."

This exam results taught me two very big lessons; acceptance and humility. I have made it into university, so what's the fuss, I asked myself. Plus, I achieved my goal of that A* for Economics, my favourite subject. The fact that I had cried over the 78% in Accounting before even looking at the 95% in Economics just showed me that I have to learn to see the bigger picture of it all.

God is good, all the time.

I count my blessings.

Loves,

Ee Ping